for those who cares

ytd i had been a gd girl, i only switched on my lappy after 10pm. actually i dun enjoy facing the laptop whole day long too, eyes get tired easily. but can't do anything bout it, rp is everything digital =,=
morning sorta washed my bike, played piano. afternoon watched miss usa on channel 5, while practising basic face features of anime/manga characters. sprayed black paint to the rusty parts of my bike which i supposed to have it done long long ago and had a chance for a quick ride after it dried and before raining. somewhere b4 9pm went to summit, bought 4 books, which total is RM40. i doubt i could buy any decent novels at the same price over at spore. hmmm...

mum reached home at 12 noon. from germany. luckily, or not i would be feeling awkward. was having a short but deep, meaningful talk with grandpa, and i was like all messy & wet. they just can't behave themselves & keep coming. so paiseh crying in front of grandpa.
all these yrs i just keep bottling, bottling and bottling. there's not a listening ear, either too busy or dun give a damn, no difference to me. when grandpa asked, i wished i could tell him but his burdens are heavy enuf, in fact, it's overweight ady. some more, i dunno where to start from. all i could manage is breakdown.




i want to run
i want to escape
i want to jump
i just want everything to end
since undo is impossible


last words for sb who cares
collect my bones, burn them to ash, and plant grapes from it