break? you call this break?

2 weeks is too short a break. with all those ut 2 assignments flooding. couldn't even have a peaceful mind. i just wish everything could just come one by one. but how is it possible. my housemate contributed her voice and the equipment she loaned from RPRC (for her FYP) in my sound design ut 2 assignment. and now she demands that i quickly give it back to her, as in finished my assignment and give her the whole file to include in her portfolio, not in a nice way i would say.

i warning you..............you should appreciate............don't make me feel hurt...............i would let it go if others hurt me............but other ppl might do sth outrageous.........i'm busy so dun disturb, just email me.............

try imagine my feeling upon seeing this. when did i hurt her and i'm not saying i won't give the file to her but now i still editing. i'm ady trying me best as my place here is noisy with all those renovations going on and i dun wanna give out crappy work. i'm ady v v stressed. felt so hurt when i saw this fb msg, and even more hurt when i found out she blocked me.

just came bk from cameron highland. super rare chance for us big family to go on a trip tgt (grandpa, granny & 4 families). this is my 1st time travelling to cameron highland, really cold out there, i even wore gloves and my sweater for winter wear. many details to be shared but not in the mood right now. mind is cluttered with all those unfinished work. i dunno what happen to me, i think i'm really really stressed. tmr i'm going bk to hostel and preparing for school to resume but i don't think i'm ready for it. tears kp rolling down whenever i think of school or work. i'm suffocated, i can't control myself, my tears.

stop before it's too late

saw this while i'm strolling my google reader

finally i'm back home, today i partial, actually wasn't feeling well b4 i went school, still struggling whether to attend class or not. upon thinking how pity jm would be if i din turn up (5 in our team, 1 said not coming, 1 is forever late, 1 is constantly watching random stuff), decided not to leave her alone & dragged myself out of bed, shower and off i went. pain in the ankle and kneepit is killing me once again. rushed to class as i was late, only to realize that jm did not turn up as well. she's sick too, hrmmm...

after 1st meeting, which is 1st break, i couldn't tahan anymore, broke down and cried, in class. luckily most of them have gone out to grab a bite. mr anthony has not gone far, was just outside the classroom and sb informed him. tried to hide my tears but to no avail when he came. he told me to go back and insisted calling my mum. i told him not to as she's busy working. then he asked for my number, gave him, no choice.

good thing my grandpa had appointment in sg today, picked me up after his medical check. so glad to be home, especially when one's not feeling well.

recently was on the brink of collapsing. i can feel it, more than ever, seriously it's coming back, even stronger than before. sth big gonna happen if i continue, though i've been ignoring this fact and tried to brush it away all this while, half of my life i reckon. i am me, no one will know better. others might look at me differently but  i must not joke with my future, if i want to have a future, if ya know what i mean.

so ya, my last piece of word.