right here beside me

tummy not feeling betul nia

how i wish u were here

pls dun let me face this alone

although i'm ady 18

i need u 

to hold my hands

to wipe my tears

to tell me i'm not alone

to say it's alright

to hug me tight

to lean on

to pat my head

to say
i still love u
no matter wat

no thx

yea.dun feel like meeting anyone.

but i miss everyone.

especially    

u   

/ ' ' \

tears rolling down my cheek

silently

secretly
unknowingly

 . i need u .

missing pasar malam days

went to pasar malam that day. it's been years since the last time.

everything has changed

all the happy times
i miss those days
when
everyone wasn't so busy

now it's not like a family
home is just a place for us to stay
sigh

i'm not crying

miserable
the gap between us
u r always not around, so busy with ur work
when u r at home, u just care about sis & bro
have u ever thought of sitting down, talking nicely, trying to understand me


oops
maybe it's my fault after all
as i just not worth it
so it's alright to just overlook me

i know i shouldn't
but
can i ask for an hour everyday
45 minutes will be fine too
wat about half an hour
or maybe just 20 minutes


FINE
i've already been transparent for this long
it won't hurt less for those pathetic few seconds which also not promising


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"that driver so good. he din horn u or knock u down"
"who cares?" "better dead rather than half-dead"

ooo...STOP IT

y y y

Y Y Y

y y y

how i know

how i know

how i know

there must be a reason

i've really no idea

stop asking

asking

asking

that won't be any help

to me

to you

to all of us

just shut up

ya

i mean it

SHUT - UP

welcome back 公公 & wz

nice, rite? taken inside the car

went spore yesterday. my grandpa & brother came back from Japan.
big big jam, kept waking & falling asleep in the car. arrived home nearly 11pm.
but after bathing i can't get to sleep.