before end of year 3 sem 1

was still hoping for hostel in my last post and here my sem has come to an end, left with the finals. really glad that all had come to an end, all the hardships of fyp was finally over. it was a really good and enriching experience, together with both good and not so good memories. 

am really grateful to have nice classmates and housemates this time round. there's a lot to say but my mind is like a whirlpool now. some grades weren't good and really hope that would do well in this upcoming ut 3.

all for now, bye.  

Dumb

feeling dumb thinking of u. who r u to be on my mind. just teach me how to shake u off. will b totally fine without u. we all have to depend on ourselves in the end. txr, try harder, let go and move on. dun be a fool.

bad news today, was laid off, sort of. was involved in a game project but today i was told to stop, as they found someone better. yup i agreed but was really sad, and still am disappointed. want to learn real stuff, where can i learn, and focus.

tmr gonna go down rp to meet counselor, only then they will decide my eligibility of staying in campus. hope everything turns out well. enuf of negative happenings.

where r u? the one who will accept n love me for who i am. i nid u to hold me tight, tell me not to worry for u will be by my side and everything will be fine.

no celebration holiday

phew, so many things going on for the past few weeks...and now, too bored.
first of all, ggj, this year's theme quite abstract and we decided to do sth different, isn't ggj for us to explore and break norms? and thanks a lot for my bff, it's been a long time since we spent time tgt, and it's awesome to share a bedroom and girls talk. celebrated her bday too, it's an expensive haagen diaz ice cream cake.
fell sick right after i returned home. and lasted for a week. birthday was the same day as lunar new year eve, no celebration at all. sucksssss!!!!
just on the 2nd day of lunar new year, papa & mummy went off to London then Frankfurt. only brother, maid & i at home. quite sick, did not went out, except a quarter-day secondary mates gathering, supposed to continue till night but i surrender. seriously her house is like a resort.

feeling pissed, dun u ever find me again!

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right now, feeling really awful, i just wish i could disappear. was about to explode, took a late night walk to empty my mind. a stranger stopped me escorted me bk home, saying it was too late. i know that but i really nid that walk. where can i get a hug

insecure

have tons inside me, i know i shouldn't have these thots but can't help it. wish i could talk to sb who has the time & patience to listen, w/o interrupting or cutting me off. just keep bottling and trying hard to ignore won't make it go away. it just sinks deeper and awhile later, it comes up again.
me dun nid any comforting words, nor do i nid any advice. just a listening ear, with a sincere heart, yet it's so hard. ppl think they have to say sth nice but they're so so wrong.

can i get a hug? deep down am an insecure little girl who nids to be constantly reassured that she's loved.