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Tuesday 31 December 2013

Bye 2013

MANY tasks awaiting due to frequent traveling this month. so can't go for outing -.-
today is the last day of 2013, countdown is too mainstream. never like crowds.







go ahead and do it with her, not me. u belong there

Saturday 28 December 2013

River

today is our family trip, supposed to be happy, but i wasn't. unhappy moments kept happen, enuf of all the scoldings. walked alone in the dark night, nearly lost, yet i wasn't feeling anything. rather i wished i just disappear so they will b happy without me.

Saturday 21 December 2013

Cheer up

can't get myself to cheer up. no matter what i do. Tried watching movie, playing piano, cycling, reading, doodling...
hrm, had a small box of new puzzle, shall try that later. also felt like blasting songs, but my CD player was taken away and no way i could use mp3, my earpiece is spoilt :-(

Friday 20 December 2013

only child in house for 1 wk

went sg ytd, sending off bro to qingdao for 1 wk. bad jam there, took us 4 hrs to reach. first met sis's bf, he's going uk to meet sis. am so envy of loving couples, when will be my turn.

during my way bk home, finished watching drama 49 days. i would say it's good.

woke up usual time though only slept at 4am, hrmm. did stuff for mum's clinic fb postings.

oh, i bought ronald mcdoald when bro ordered burger at the airport while waiting to board. will post pics ltr.






i'm gaining weight, it's good? but i don't feel alright

Wednesday 18 December 2013

confused

here i am again, after so many months. coz i feel the need to write, to express. i was so wrong in the first place, stopped writing, as i'm afraid of letting others knowing my feelings. but now i really need a place to let it out.

what do i want? i myself don't even know. i wish i could just splurt it out but i can't. i don't wish things to get complicated. of course i hate u, no, i don't hate u at all. i want to run away, no, i don't. i'm just too afraid, i don't want to face this. it seems that i'm losing control over myself, and falling back gradually.......




thanks, i felt so happy today...but that stirred things up

Friday 13 December 2013

iPersonic Personality Test: The Harmony-seeking Idealist

My Type:
Harmony-seeking Idealists are characterised by a complex personality and an abundance of thoughts and feelings. They are warm-hearted persons by nature. They are sympathetic and understanding. Harmony-seeking Idealists expect a lot of themselves and of others. They have a strong understanding of human nature and are often very good judges of character.
But they are mostly reserved and confide their thoughts and feelings to very few people they trust. They are deeply hurt by rejection or criticism. Harmony-seeking Idealists find conflict situations unpleasant and prefer harmonious relationships. However, if reaching a certain target is very important to them they can assert themselves with a doggedness bordering on obstinacy.

Harmony-seeking Idealists have a lively fantasy, often an almost clairvoyant intuition and are often very creative. Once they have tackled a project, they do everything in their power to achieve their goals. In everyday life, they often prove to be excellent problem solvers. They like to get to the root of things and have a natural curiosity and a thirst for knowledge. At the same time, they are practically oriented, well organised and in a position to tackle complex situations in a structured and carefully considered manner. When they concentrate on something, they do so one hundred percent - they often become so immersed in a task that they forget everything else around them. That is the secret of their often very large professional success.


As partners, harmony-seeking idealists are loyal and reliable; a permanent relationship is very important to them. They seldom fall in love head over heels nor do they like quick affairs. They sometimes find it very difficult to clearly show their affection although their feelings are deep and sincere. In as far as their circle of friends is concerned, their motto is: less is more! As far as new contacts are concerned, they are approachable to only a limited extent; they prefer to put their energy into just a few, close friendships. Their demands on friends and partners are very high. As they do not like conflicts, they hesitate for some time before raising unsatisfactory issues and, when they do, they make every effort not to hurt anyone as a result.

Career Advice:
As a Harmony-seeking Idealist you are one of the introverted personality types. Therefore you prefer a quiet work environment where you can intensively deal with your responsibilities and are not disturbed by too many people and repeated distractions. You need a lot of time to dwell on your thoughts, to put them into words and let your ideas take shape.
You are grateful for a certain measure of order and structure in order to achieve this, and being able to deal with one project after the other, thus not having a number of responsibilities at one time. You don’t like being overloaded because it is important to you to deal with things thoroughly. Your capability to concentrate is unusually great and very often you become engrossed in something and forget everything around you.

You are one of the feeler types. This fact is partially the reason that you have a very strong insight into human nature and enjoy dealing with people. You are interested in the people around you and have a real sense for their motivations, needs and abilities. Your talent to see the best in everybody and your keen wish to understand others and somehow contribute to their well-being predestine you to work with people.

Due to your propensity to be introverted you are not into holding major speeches for large audiences. Your real strength lies in working individually with people like therapists, physicians or priests. In those professions, when advancing others in their personal development or to help them in any other way is the issue, you are unbeatable.

You are extremely sensitive, and your social competences are developed above average. As a result you have no problems working with people or being a team member. Still, you should watch out to primarily surround yourself with persons who are similarly profound and eclectic. During the working day you abhor thoughtless, superficial, and insensitive colleagues.

Wednesday 19 June 2013

the haze is totally crazy

here is me, after 3 weeks (=,=) hey, dun ya gimme that look, see, i've improved, looking at the date, last time it was more than a month for a new blog post
1 of my reasons that i seldom blog now is that i started to keep a diary of my own. it's more convenient and more personal, where i just have to grab my mechanical pencil and jot down my feelings, i get distracted when i switch on my lappy, always end up doing other stuff <('~')> moreover, i get to doodle on my diary as sometimes it's hard to express thru 'appropriate' words, 'web etiquette', whateva

today is my 5th driving lesson, there are 8 altogether (< 2hrs per lesson) before i'll go for the driving test. ikr, 8! can you imagine, we become drivers on road with 16 hrs of learning, that's scary. it sure explained the high accident rate in msia. btw, i hate steering the wheel during parking, so heavy {`-`}


my comic master class by Joe Murray started last week, was busy drawing. was struggling with another online course by coursera at the same time. luckily managed to submit assignments for both courses in time, phew. quite happy with my work though
sneak peak of my works:
mail art assignment correspondence with memory

how recipients take out the inserts from the envelope

character drawings showing 20 specific emotions
sketch out ideas on small notepad (left) before drawing the finals (right)



the haze is killing me, difficult to breathe. and it makes driving much more difficult as can't see clearly what's in front, those inconsiderate ppl, rahhh. 

Wednesday 29 May 2013

i must be more self disciplined

it's been a month since year 3 started, and i've not returned to school. having my long break while everyone's busy with fyp, undergoing tons of stress. to be honest, i feel relieved not being in the system, free from the tension & stress. yet, i feel like a useless person. ppl are doing great stuff out there and here i am, lolling about at home.

ok, enough of negative thots. it's a bit unfair to say that i did nth over the past 2 mths since holiday. i've been going for art lessons, once or twice a wk. had also went for the undang theory lecture, passed the exam, attended another pre-learning lecture and got my L license, where i'm ready to learn driving. also, been helping out mum with her clinic's facebook & blog posts, website still in progress. and and recently 1 of my ex facis asked if i'm interested in designing a logo for his newly started game company so gave it a try. now trying to get it done as soon as possible coz i've been dragging too looong =(

that's for all now, good night

1 of my works for mum's clinic



Monday 22 April 2013

long farewell

i thought i would blog more when i'm not having class, apparently i'm wrong

quick updates w photos

after unpacking my luggage from hostel in spore, and tidied up my stuff, it's like moving house, yes, in a way

my broccoli #likeaboss 




mum bought me puzzle from aus, delighted, it's been awhile since the last time i did jigsaw. and i completed it in < 3 days



i started playing Line Play

below are some styles i would love to try out one day





bought jelly powder 2 yrs ago, and just kept them in the drawer. finally made some jellies =)





i hope i made the right decision, not going bk anymore but at least some takeaway


Friday 15 March 2013

\(^ . ^)/ universal studios singapore

trip #2 USS

wanted to visit USS since long ago but always can't find sb to accompany me there, frens have all been there & mum has no intention of visiting (was quite furious when i found out that she went there w her nurses). furthermore, it's not cheap $$
anyway, told myself i must visit there b4 i left or i'll regret for certain in the future. enuf said, start finding ppl and managed to get sb =)

















the best takeaway, was sponsored for the tickets, thankew so much





saw some angry birds merchandises at vivocity candy empire and i bought the gummies (>")>

marina barrage

after the finals, here comes my holiday & the end of year 2 =目
i supposed i did well overall, except some tricky questions. so pray hard that i get good grades, a great full stop for my studies in rp

since 95% i won't return anymore, felt that i had to have some nice memories before i left

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planned to meet at marina bay mrt station at 4pm. knowing that i'm always late, i decided to leave early. all ready at 2.30pm, hj called and said he can't make it at 3pm, so i told him i would wait for them at yishun instead. around 2.45pm, left the hostel & took my own sweet time to walk to the mrt station. alighted the train at yishun, called, was told that gordon was still at home preparing food while hj would meet me in 10 mins. and that's a v v long 10 mins indeed, i assumed that roughly 10 trains have arrived & departed. finally he reached, at 3.45, not v sure, with a tray of hash brown. quickly we boarded the train, and not long after that, i received message from jeremy asking where we're at then. so paiseh, everyone's waiting when we reached marina bay. haiz # '~' 

the weather's v v hot but the wind's v v strong, our cups filled w drinks made such a mess, jy get all her pants wet & sticky =(
chit chat, photos, eating.....all while waiting for gordon's arrival. till 6pm, he's still not in sight. called him and he told us he's at red line but refused to tell us which station. jy's guessing that he just got on the train as he wasn't here yet near 7. i think he reached around 7.30pm, wow, a good 3+ hrs of late, with a "stranger" friend of his & lots of food *clapclap*  










as for this one, purposely put the photo which has J not facing the cam
she din want her photos to be seen

 to be continued....


Monday 25 February 2013

updates w photos

shoot. nearly 2 mths since last update. every time i would open a new tab and start a new post, yet in the end   i would always shut down without typing anything. many things happen during these 2 mths, mayb i would just add photos to summarize.



Cameron Highlands









end of 2012, here comes 2013

new year alone 010113

there is the crazy month of assignments & project deadlines to meet, busy busy january. on the day of sound design submission, global game jam began. making a game in 48 hrs. a few days after that, it's my bday ^^

GGJ with my ex portfolio supervisor -- Lawrence, he left our school ady



hohoho, end of class but not the end of sem, long weekend break for lunar new year