happy birthday to louisa dear & mr kongzi

just reached home few hours ago. went kl, to visit friends. started our journey as early as 6am, had breakfast at seremban. wanted to get a small packet of HL, bought a can of coffee too. total is 5.20 ringgit. kinda expensive,the sticker price at the coffee can is 2.40, meaning the HL is 2.80, how can that be?! the more i thought bout it, the more i felt that the shopkeeper keyed in the wrong item. so went back and asked 'HL kecil ini dua ringgit lapan puluh sen?' , shaking it high up in the air. 'Ya.' i was like, um, okay, nth to say.
and i saw the price in kl, which was 1.80, the usual one. i got conned!!!

had lunch at taylor, fish porridge & salad. portion was huge, real huge, there's pic for evidence

RM 5.50

went sunway but nth much to do, just to kill time. after that, took shuttle back to taylors again. watched korean movie in the library, quite comfy, can lie down. din finished watching it, tired & hungry ady. i must say, subway is much cheaper in kl, spent 7.90 ringgit for a salad which i had to pay 5.60 dollars in spore.
met yimin, kng, peina, jingyu, jinghan, esther at suriamas' swimming pool when we came back. peixin was at home, enjoying her kopi & astro drama.
went jarren's place at night, finally met jvlyn after so long. nice girl. and not to 4get their 5 bears: peanut, butter, kaya, almond, amos =)

morning took cab to the hotel papa's staying. i dunno y i was so tired, slept all the way in the car (from hotel to office then to klcc).
there's this particular thing i need to say here, coz it's rather unusual and i'm sure most of u haven come across it. i saw this bunch (not as much as those packed in transparent plastic boxes usually sold in ntuc/cold storage) of green grapes, pricing at 220 ringgit!!! every of the grapes is round and large, but i can't imagine who would splurge on these. not 22 u know, it's 220!!! and the dark colour (red or black) grapes beside it is cheaper, at 99 ringgit but still considered extremely expensive to me. i would have been broke by now if all the grapes have the same price as these, since i finish up grapes v v fast, no kidding. luckily, phew.

busted plan

so i was supposed to attend my class gathering (bbq+chalet) at somewhere around pasir ris. 1st time travelled alone by bus from bp to sg, especially for this. how i know on that very day, my stomach is not cooperating with me, had diarrhea. nvm, i thought, it wouldn't be serious. and i was wrong, not exactly those acute type but it's the frequency. to add on, it rained so heavily that i couldn't make a clear view what's out there from my hostel. in the end, i did not attend, sorry for those who prepared my meal and whom i promised to go with. i can't enjoy there too for i would be running to toilets or maybe i would end up just staying at the toilet, or worse, had that diarrhea mode in mrt (it would be more than an hour you know)

seriously feeling disappointed, wasted my time & energy, should have just said that i would not be attending & stayed at home instead. alone in hostel, sick!

hot food warms my tummy in such cold weather
even it's only tofu and vegs

 

for those who cares

ytd i had been a gd girl, i only switched on my lappy after 10pm. actually i dun enjoy facing the laptop whole day long too, eyes get tired easily. but can't do anything bout it, rp is everything digital =,=
morning sorta washed my bike, played piano. afternoon watched miss usa on channel 5, while practising basic face features of anime/manga characters. sprayed black paint to the rusty parts of my bike which i supposed to have it done long long ago and had a chance for a quick ride after it dried and before raining. somewhere b4 9pm went to summit, bought 4 books, which total is RM40. i doubt i could buy any decent novels at the same price over at spore. hmmm...

mum reached home at 12 noon. from germany. luckily, or not i would be feeling awkward. was having a short but deep, meaningful talk with grandpa, and i was like all messy & wet. they just can't behave themselves & keep coming. so paiseh crying in front of grandpa.
all these yrs i just keep bottling, bottling and bottling. there's not a listening ear, either too busy or dun give a damn, no difference to me. when grandpa asked, i wished i could tell him but his burdens are heavy enuf, in fact, it's overweight ady. some more, i dunno where to start from. all i could manage is breakdown.




i want to run
i want to escape
i want to jump
i just want everything to end
since undo is impossible


last words for sb who cares
collect my bones, burn them to ash, and plant grapes from it

Comics IG Camp

yup, i'm back at home again, with my lovely cushioned chair and rooms with fans. i d k why they dun put fans in rp or even the hostel.
where have i been these 3 days, just for the sake if u're interested, i went for my comics ig camp. am rather surprised that so few ppl actually went for the camp. enjoyed myself with the friendly seniors there. although there's some problem bout catering of food but eventually they made up by funding me to buy food from school canteen. mayb a good thing too, i got to choose what i want.
the camp was quite relax & flexible compared to many other camps. there's a comic strip comp at the last day, so most of the time we were either working on it or fooling around. every junior is assigned a 'senior-mon' to assist in each's comic strip. mine didn't come out well. what should i say, at least i've tried and completed it in time.
din have opportunity to take many pics, let's wait & see if the person in charge of shooting photos does post them in fb

draft panel

last day breakfast - mushroom omelette

not so fast, i beg any god

was feeling lonely, looking forward to celebrating mid-autumn with family but somehow had to came here on the very morning which tea party was just at night. sad sia. worse still the stores/canteens/library in my school are all closed on Sundays, me nth to do except surfing net.

night b4 sleep, started reading Mitch Albom's "Tuesday with Morrie". listening random songs in my hp. started to think of my grandpa, recently he's breathing heavily, health is declining, and all of a sudden i started to weep. i'm so freaking afraid that he would go away, what should i do if he's not around. he's the one who care most bout me, all along, before and after i was diagnosed with xxxx. by coincidence, the songs in 1litre of tears is being played then, which have tons of memories (with diff ppl during the last 2 admissions)



pls dun go away, i nid u
i shall bcome healthy & happy, for u to be in peace when the time comes

i luv mum

 

see? smiling is easy. juz keep doing it and it'll be genuine.

little exercising. juz walking at the recreational park. scary monkey, teeth so sharp, i had to go a big round.

tin nestle mocca for bf. stands for b-r-e-a-k-f-a-s-t, not  | ' n ' | ' x ' | piano practising. joe hisaishi. not only soothing & calming but difficult to play too, keep me occupied & concentrate.

went cinema to smurf. la la~la la-la-la, la~la la-la-la. i dun like 3D glasses, they're so loose, always dropping. mum din put it on, coz she has cat-o-phobia. bro was busy munching on popcorn, waste money, he wasn't hungry, juz dun feel comfortable without spending money.

hungry now. wat awkward timing. 

happy songs made me cry?

thought i had let go
i'm wrong
the fact is
i was only suppressing
all this while



i know sad songs made me sad. so i choose happy lively songs to play on my piano but even then i can't finish 1 single piece without tears rolling down, blurring my vision. for a mere half an hour, i've stopped 2 times, to wash up.

why, why am i feeling so sad. i just came back from tasik y aka the famous playground/garden in bp. i just enjoyed my swing there.

is it better to be here, at home, or should i go back to sg, far away from all overwhelming memories

me no h-a-i-pocrate to u & her

if i say i dun give a damn
i would be punished by God
for telling such big lie


if i say 'Congratulations'
i would not forgive myself
for being such a fake



so
i would say nothing
dun expect me


i think i need some time
before i can truly wish u
from heart

i just can't wish u

found out sth today
i know i shouldn't be feeling like this but



promises are shit

home sweet home

strolling down the beach near changi airport while waiting my grandpa's flight

windy, take all my sleepiness away, as well as my worries

arrival supposed to be at 10.35pm but reached earlier, however they only came out like 11.10pm. the journey back was not a gd one, cramped, 4 ppl at the backseat, can't get to slp. reached home around 1.30am, had a hot bath, and din feel like sleeping anymore. stayed awake all the way till 5am, head the bed for 1 hr and i'm up.

mum working on sat, coz she won't b working for the next next wk, course in Germany. too bad it was a funded trip, then she also dun want to bring me. haiz

cooked my own lunch, mum promised to bring me for crab dinner, nice =)

nighttime, they were screening Hercules on channel 5. so awesome, i can still rmb i used to have a hercules sticker storybook. pain & panic are 2 imps but sometimes they r cute.

this is pain

this is panic