officially Graduated finally

graduating

went to sg few days ago, to collect my grad gown, invitation card & SOR (statement of result). had no place to stay, thank God my previous housies r kind enough to let me tumpang. most of them went bk as it's a weekend, except for one but she was out working most of the time. it felt as if i were checking in into a hotel, a bit lonely but still cool, i own the whole apartment =] 

my lovely thoughtful housie even borrowed me her student card to loan books from the lib, wahoo, actually i wanted to finish the nicholas spark collection there, i read 3, and 2 more to go now, i hope i rmb to bring it on grad day itself to return, or i will be in big trouble 'o'

collected my stuff on sat with my bestie, really glad to see her & bf being such sweet couple, it's not the showy type but from their interaction i can sense the chemical in between them, which reminds me of the times. p-e-r-i-o-d 

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happy birthday mummy, finally bought the cute bread cutter, yay 

i'm not ur backup plan, ur spare tire, please. i dun nid ur sympathy

before end of year 3 sem 1

was still hoping for hostel in my last post and here my sem has come to an end, left with the finals. really glad that all had come to an end, all the hardships of fyp was finally over. it was a really good and enriching experience, together with both good and not so good memories. 

am really grateful to have nice classmates and housemates this time round. there's a lot to say but my mind is like a whirlpool now. some grades weren't good and really hope that would do well in this upcoming ut 3.

all for now, bye.  

break? you call this break?

2 weeks is too short a break. with all those ut 2 assignments flooding. couldn't even have a peaceful mind. i just wish everything could just come one by one. but how is it possible. my housemate contributed her voice and the equipment she loaned from RPRC (for her FYP) in my sound design ut 2 assignment. and now she demands that i quickly give it back to her, as in finished my assignment and give her the whole file to include in her portfolio, not in a nice way i would say.

i warning you..............you should appreciate............don't make me feel hurt...............i would let it go if others hurt me............but other ppl might do sth outrageous.........i'm busy so dun disturb, just email me.............

try imagine my feeling upon seeing this. when did i hurt her and i'm not saying i won't give the file to her but now i still editing. i'm ady trying me best as my place here is noisy with all those renovations going on and i dun wanna give out crappy work. i'm ady v v stressed. felt so hurt when i saw this fb msg, and even more hurt when i found out she blocked me.

just came bk from cameron highland. super rare chance for us big family to go on a trip tgt (grandpa, granny & 4 families). this is my 1st time travelling to cameron highland, really cold out there, i even wore gloves and my sweater for winter wear. many details to be shared but not in the mood right now. mind is cluttered with all those unfinished work. i dunno what happen to me, i think i'm really really stressed. tmr i'm going bk to hostel and preparing for school to resume but i don't think i'm ready for it. tears kp rolling down whenever i think of school or work. i'm suffocated, i can't control myself, my tears.

i wanna MCssssss, the more the merrier

okay, sim & mod was over. one does not simply afraid that the questions are hard, one does get mindf when the questions themselves are not in right order (and they are all linked !) which one had to scroll up and down to find where the "supposedly previous" question was {_*| not to mention the somehow incomprehendsible questions
nvr mind, what is done is done, focus on the next, which is gonna be today's paper -- character design. well, hope that i could ace this. (-¥-) pray hard

skipped school ytd, feeling unwell, phisically & mentally. been crying a lot these 2 days, have made up my mind on some important issues that's gonna shock a number of ppl, not gonna announce it yet till everything is confirmed & settled.
attended the iip briefing in the evening, however mind was wandering somewhere else, notpaying full attention but i do know what the faci had briefed. discussed bout fyp team after that, still can't be sure that they will not leave me out but i think will have to believe & trust them for now. really really, give thanks to Father & Mother for me to have a team but i wish the team could unleash my potential, not taking me for the sake of taking me. teach me & guide me along instead, don't just take over my work and redo the whole w/o telling me how to improve which makes me feel totally useless & weightless in this team, like a calefare.

enough ranting. aiks, no mc to cover my absence (._.)

james' bday on wed

there you go, shoo, weeds

i know i had been neglecting my bloggie for quite some time and now i'm coming back to pluck the weeds and sweep the web cobs here


so, as you can infer from my frequency of update, this is a busy sem, although there are 2 half-day modules, i still feel it's pretty tiring, and my battery level is on the low side. the to-do is piling up, yet i've been procrastinating, i dunno why am i acting this way but school doesn't seem to suit me, at least at this point of time. i somehow wish i could defer and take a break, do home study or sth similar, work on projects, building my portfolio, rather than rushing nowhere..............\\(..)//

broccoli, tomatoes, mushroom & eggs 

finally i got to visit my own home last week, terrible jam, curse you )(@#*^@ nearly 2 mths nvr went home, i've always thought that i'm not a home person since i'm so used to be in & out of hospital, having long term vacation in those wards. furthermore, nobody bothered to talk to me at home. but i'm wrong, i totally miss my hometown, my family, the piano, those home cooked food, my room, my bed, even my table, my chair.

enough say, am having exams these few weeks, required to play games. for level & world design, it's FarCry 1, which is a first person shooter and i suck at it, where as Battle City, a flash game, is for sim & mod. i'm quite worried for sound design though, hate those theories, i totally not a dj or recording ppl, although i love music, composing & appreciating it are nth same with dealing with those stupid stuff like setting up digital whatever workshop or how microphones work.

finished 1 book this morning -- Oscar & The Lady in Pink 

no idea what to cook, throw in whatever that's easy to cook
tofu, seaweed, tomato, cabbage

till then, good night
Always remember to brush teeth *p*

tgis

oh, finally it's end of wk 1. bloody shitty tired, nvr ever had a good slp since wed -- character design. had to do 20 silhouettes and i stayed awake from 1.30am, all the way to the next morning just to complete it, see how slow i am. i hate myself to b like this, i d k if i could handle this module or not, this can't be going on for the following 15 wks, i would probably pass out b4 getting that far. and this lack of slp was brought forward to the next day, which is level & world design. i quite like my faci, lawrence but he was just teaching us for 1 lesson .(p'o'q). was v tired and can't do my rj, went to slp and woke up again at 1 to finish it, till friday. i was so so so not feeling well. class starts at 9am, wanted to bathe at 7 but the bathroom was occupied. fell asleep while waiting and the next thing i know it's ady 845. omg, nvr had this happened b4, shocked, had a quick shower. luckily i was not marked late although i arrived class 1 or 2 mins later. faci hasn't start class yet. phew (." ) the same cycle went thru again last night while i was trying to do my rj. so not liking this, and i am pretty determined to end this vicous cycle today >[`-`]<

my 20 silhouettes of a science fiction male hero rebellion leader

felt really bad when i eat a lot at midnight, and uncomfortable too

why on earth 1st day on a friday

friday was 1st day of sem2. had simulation & modelling. anthony supposed to teach us but he was absent that day, so this dominic guy took over, and he is the one who will be teaching us level & world design. all my facis are from last sem, except him, been wondering who he is and what's his teaching style. so now, i've seen all of them.

sim & mod is not my cuppa tea. we are strangers, am starting to worry for the following lessons & the exams now. hope i can get better, trying to persuade myself.

went for a swim ytd morning, hurray for me. dunno why but getting myself to swim always makes me feel great about myself, minus the fact that ppl will look at me. i just simply feel accomplishment, like the feel that i'm in control. went to church in the afternoon. and got wet when i came bk, heavy rain. cold. brrrr

today was a boring one. i'm starting to miss home. even though there's nth much to do at home. over here, i dunno what to cook and what to eat. miserable. i miss my sem 1 bestie too. ljy, if u see this.

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happy birthday

mummy, vacation is over = [

school reopen tmr. so fast. i'm anxious like a freshman. shouldn't be. still having 5 days schedule =,= i wish i could have 4 days schedule like my friend. checked my class roster and a lil disappointed. not same class as my cynthia or yuhong. jasmine, deslyn & erlina are quite good fellows too, furthermore stuck with mr D again!!! purleees larh

movie with bff @ square one
finally watching movie wif fren at hometown =]

nice bread, all the way from germany
from mum

granny bought me this @ carrefour b4 coming to spore

bought the tie for my gonggong & the pouch for  mama

  

ya, for my granny, the media pouch

btw, thanks my dear papa for fetching me here personally =)

can't wait for it to end

1 paper left, hohoho. am reading the readings now, not now now obviously i'm blogging. high level rules, mid level rules, low level rules, finally i sorta understand now after reading pages of pdf

dun really have appetite for dinner, raining heavily and it's cold. do feel a lil hungry, can hear the grumbling of my stomach but just dunno what to have. maybe just feel lazy cooking (for this week i've been cooking for every single meal meaning lunch & dinner) + bored eating those same food. luckily mum & dad bought me an oven toaster the week before when they came & luckily i decided to bought broccoli & tomato this morning after i finished my paper & so just in luck i brought 2 slices of cheese from home that time when i went back. all these coincidence add up i not ending starving myself --> boiled broccoli & half of a  portobello mushroom (from last time), then sliced half of a tomato, topped them with 1 slice of cheese. my dinner! baked portomatocoli with cheese =)

it's so nice to see it in dark, waiting for it to be ready

okay, back to yesterday. i woke up early, dun feel like studying. finished off a book, a very good one indeed, borrowed from sis, 'steal like an artist' by austin kleon

after that i did some doodling, will post them up when i have time but it's really nth much, just random stuff that has no real meaning to others. did sudoku. like i'm having no exams -,- i just nid some personal time to getaway from all these stress. went swimming too around 10. after bathing & busy preparing lunch, my room mate asked to jaga her barang-barang. she's moving out (imma owning the whole room now, if not i've no idea how i gonna survive in such cold days with the air-con on). 

oh ya, i swept my room just now. it's so clean & shiny & smooth, u know it when u slide your feet across the floor

july first & last

woops, unknowingly, nearly a month since the last post. what does this mean? needless to point it out, clearly shows that how busy i've been for the past few weeks. living in hell, okay, not in hell, at least i enjoyed the process even though i felt like being tortured. i think this is what they call passion. 

went for blood test few days ago. waiting for result now. cost me a bomb. $122!!!!!!! wouldn't have done it if i knew it's gonna be so ex  (0# 0) my mentor brought me there after he saw my fb status saying my feet are  swollen. shouldn't have post it, now i'm kinda broke

all UT1 grades have been published, nvr been so disappointed b4. really felt ashamed, my parents had worked so hard yet i gave this kind of result, how unfilial i am, cried ='(

btw, wanted to have a swim but my goggles snapped. luckily i had just bought it for RM5. still i have to buy a new one now.

crap work

felt so disheartened & disappointed at myself, my game, my team. i know i can't blame them, they are trying, like what i did. but why insist on clinging on to the idea when you know you can't do it. in the end, what did we get? a crappy crap & what else? oh ya, you got me pissed off. received my 1st C for daily grade for this sem. so not nice.

busy june

halfway watching finding nemo, not that i'm so free, it's a requirement for my art of story module UT1. i guess we would be tested based on the story analysis framework, which is about the main character, quest, obstacles etc. *sigh* when does watching video/movies has become a homework too. every week we've been given short film as homework, this week is a lil different, it's a picture

2 down, 3 more to go. for game design workshop, i kinda think too much, i should have just write it coz it was the same as faci's answer when sb asked him in class that day = ,= 

visual scripting was quite ok, except for the last question, dun really understand

hope that i can do well for the next 3: interaction design, analog game theory, art of story

seriously i have no idea how to study for these 3 modules, no clue at all!!!!

been splitting myself into many parts for 2 or 3 consecutive weeks ady. game design workshop UT2 project still have a long way to go, i wish that my team mate could work it out, if not, i d k what would happen. luckily analog game theory UT2 project is progressing, however the rules had to be simplified, to avoid confusion, ppl might not have the patience to listen & understand your rules and most will just walk off without starting to play the game. now we have to figure out how to hook ppl and sell them our ideas in seconds, or minutes (more realistic)

hercules

papa bought it for me when we went to ikea last week =)
was having tummy ache and hugging to it the whole afternoon while waiting for mum & sis to buy stuff there
i'm still thinking whether to buy it or not at the cashier but papa said just buy if i like, so nice, thankew

tmr is father's day but i could not go back =(

btw, i swam this morning, kinda love the weather, big sun but windy & partly cloudy

a good day to u =)

haha, always feel great after swimming, a sense of accomplishment. again i went swimming this morning, fine weather, swam 10 small laps (usually 8 laps)

actually quite sleepy b4 went down to swim, coz had an early night ytd & woke up at 1am to do my rj for analog game theory, slept only at 5am, then woke up again at 7am. however, all the sleepiness had gone after dashing into the pool. did some stretching after the swim. although it's hot, i enjoy the feel of a warm sun.

at the mention of analog game theory, had sth to say. time always passes super fast unknowingly when doing this module, such that when i gone hungry and checked the time, normally it's ady 12+, where other days my tummy started grumbling around 11am+, haha, like hungry ghost sia. oh, and recently a new faci mr. anthony

transferred here and took over my beloved faci shaun. what a pity, i want shaun back!!!

oh, we were playing settlers of catan after class ytd, as it is UT testable, nid to know how to play it. so skipped my comics ig, and that's part of the reason i slept early ytd, another reason is that the network wasn't working & i had no idea for the rj, some more it's open till this morning 10am. did paper prototype for a digital game wisps of twilight ytd. love our game & my team mates, we just click and i feel comfortable working with them.

wisps of twilight (original digital version)
din take photo for our paper prototype

last week we were doing ludo, add in 10-12 special tiles & modify some rules 

listening to all the chinese songs in my lappy. love them to the max : )

songs i enjoy

currently this is our class hot song
hahaha, although heard it long time ago, it stills entertain me
these few days 1 of my classmates keeps playing songs from Jay, my idol previously. my room mate too, playing his songs over her lappy, yup now is the once famous 龙卷风.

$25 consultation fees, $12.80 medicine, discount $12.80 = free meds

i wanted to update about my year 2 but din have time to blog, there's so many things going on. i'm having full schedule every single day, no half day classes for this sem. here's my timetable: 

mon - interaction design

tues - visual scripting

wed - game design workshop

thur - art of story

fri - analog game theory

there's so much to read up & a whole long list of games we need to try out, i d k where to get them

it's just 2nd wk and i had missed 2 days of class. coz had diarrhea ytd, went to c a doc to get mc, felt better at night. planned to attend class this morn, woke up to bathe even though i was quite sleepy but ending up not going school still. really really too tired. continue slping after mandi. almost slept thru the whole morning, with just a few conscious moment in between. it's been a long time ago since i ever slept so soundly, maybe also bcoz not enuf slp for normal days, like what the malay pepatah or wateva: sedikit sedikit, lama lama jadi bukit.

feeling a lot better in the afternoon, now i can't slp, i think i had slpt too much =n= how arh, i really need to attend class tmr, no more mc for me. just now i was so panic, as i've been quite drowsy, i forgot where i had placed my mc, luckily found it =)

mum bought this jacket while she was in USA, wearing it for the 1st time
it looks nice & i'm lovin it
a change of style once in a while

  

tmr is a whole new start

actually just came back this morning, past few days were at home but seriously the network broke down and the tmnet ppl so lazy, reported so many times, even went down to their office still they dragged, dun want to repair. so angry. no internet, no phone...
can't get to download the udk software required for tmr's lesson. keep saying download was interupted, since that day b4 i went home. so so fed up & frustrated, not mentioning how worried i am. fb msgged my faci, luckily he said he'll bring a thumbdrive with e software for us.

met 2 other housemates, actually i know both of them b4 this, 1 was my neighbour last year, also my ex-roommate's ex-classmate, the other we always meet on the way coming bk from buying groceries, she was the one who told me i can actually appeal to stay in the hostel. wow, fate bring us tgt. she accompanied me for lunch, haha, i have been eating alone most of the time for the past year, esp sem 2. she's an indonesian, quite talkative, but not those loud type, mayb she just clicks with me? she's having her 3rd year. she like papaya too, keep offering me food, not really offer lar but recommend. heard that there's a british staying in this unit too but up till now i haven seen her. my roommate told me 3 of them get tgt quite well, meaning her, the british & the phillipino, the 1st one i introduced. 3 of them love to have fun, party & buy shoes. how true, that day when i left b4 they moved in, only half on top of the shoe cabinet is arranged with shoes. but now, on top of the shoe cabinet, full, nvm, i'm thinking of there'll still be a lot of space in the cabinet, when by the time i open the cabinet door and found my self wrong. there is not a place, okay, i'm being dramatic, there is 1, the only one tiny place for me to place my shoes. this is the 1st time i can relate to why guys always complain about girls owning tons of shoes yet not contented.

balik kampung =)

to spore

superhero me on a wednesday

    Accomplished

this is my spongbob mood for ytd.

reasons:

1. swept the floor

2. washed the clothes

3. returned books borrowed from library

4. bought groceries *v* grappies

5. bought combat (ant killer)

6. have my zenbook repaired (virus infection according to IT helpdesk) & the whole CS5 suite installed

walked so many times to and fro, feet aching and i felt that even those orientation freshies were like what is this skinny girl limping here and there so many times. it's not that i want but u see, the 1st time was to buy groceries, 2nd time was to send my notebook, and the 3rd time to collect.

so tired ytd, slept quite early, not even 10pm. woke up suddenly around 1.30am to find myself sleeping with the lights on & air con off. went toilet, on air con, off lights, continue my sleep. my roommate only came back around 5+ in the morning. our timings are just opposite, by the time she was about to hit the pillow, i'm ady wide awake. anyway, i think i can get along with her.

the ant killer seems to work, at least now no more crawling on the dining table & my desk, just that my bed is still not cleared ="=

going bk later, my feet can u faster recover, i want to hop & run like i used to


oh ya, nearly forgot about this

i bought the matcha one, as a birthday gift to my parents, for them to share. belated present for my papa and in advanced for my mummy. hope they like it

new academic year begining

i'm using the asus pad to blog. my 1st time, weird feeling. ask me y? coz my notebook can't connect to network, since i reached here ytd but the funny thing is pps works. thank god if not i'll really go crazy.

actually had sth to blog & photos to post but apparently it's troublesome as all the files are in the notebook. 

as i mentioned earlier on (or i had not mentioned), nvr, that's not the point. the point is, i get my stay in this hostel and i've moved down to another floor, another unit, which also means another room, another roommate. 

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ehh, just realised actually there is a keyboard attached to this pad beneath the screen and y i din think of it, stupid me

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dun mind that random paragraph, let's continue where i left. yup, a new room. the room is lots of ants, plentiful, no matter how hard i try to kill them they still appear, my table, my drawer, my rack/shelves, even my pencil box. oh bloody hell, on my bed!!! they would back off awhile after i revenge but come back afterwards. i pray that after a few days they would just disappear for their own good and for mine too =) really, i'm desperate & sincere. if not, i have to consider switching room. actually the switch room thingy is coz i'm afraid of cold so i wrote an e-mail to ask for a bed not under the aircon. but they said they have ady allocated my bed and said i could ask my roommate to switch with me. my roommate then said she lazy coz ady arranged her barang-barang. then she asked if i want to switch room with another girl, 1 of her friends but haven came bk from phillipines. i went to look at that room, it's quite okay, somemore have 2 windows(more sunlight & better view), i can choose my bed too. just the thing that i also need to clean the room, move ALL my things there. and what i fear most is i d k who's going to move in, which is an unknown roommate. so i'm giving  myself a few more days to decide, the temperature thingy & ant thingy. 

my current roommate quite nice lar, 1 year younger than me but seems a lot mature, wearing mature clothes, high heels, various make-ups. oooh, she's a singaporean. dun ask me how she get to stay here, i won't tell u. there's also sth very OMG of her but i prefer to keep my mouth shut, not telling u. nahnahnah

my feet (rmb i fell down and had the ligament injury) still not showing improvement after so long. how? i wished everything turn out okay, after i wake up, everything will be just the way i want it. 

i'm starting to miss home ady and i just arrived here ytd

times will be when things won't go as u plan

a week in hostel and back home again now
spent lots of time planning my comic & sketching out my storyboard
however, looking back at those pages
now i dun see a story
time = wasted
tell me how, deadline for storyboard & character design is tmr


20/3 was my pa's bday
i was in rp taking video for the ISIP (international student immersion program)
got to know 1 or 2 ppl which are quite friendly, although i knew them b4 but din really talk to them


and ya, supposed to come bk only on fri
had signed up as a helper for an event in scape warehouse
3++ i was already out, reached somerset mrt around 4.30pm, can't find the exact venue
it was almost 5 when i arrived, sweating & quite thirsty
my name is not on the list ---(0,0)---> *arrow shoot thru head*  
what's with the e-mail they sent reminding me to b punctual if i'm not required
another thing, the time, stated 5~7 but now 5~10
(╯‵□′)╯︵ ┴─┴ *flip table*
i'm done with it, walk off with head up high holding back tears
trip = wasted
i dun nid to stay if not for this event, i might as well follow my grandpa's car and go home
oh *light bulbs* *finding for phone frantically*
"公公，你们还在新加坡吗""是啊，刚刚做完事，多一下要回"
"酱我可以跟你们的车回吗"
"可以啊，你在你宿舍啊"
........and the rest is not important
yes yes yes *jumping with cheerleading bomboms*
so this is how i ended coming bk earlier than planned
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